My story is like so many other giftedly gendered; it just took me longer to build the courage and inner strength to move forward. 

The previous three years have been a self awakening, mid-life crisis or salvation for me and during these profound years I discovered a priceless life lesson; we only change when then there is enough pain.  We will struggle and fight, knowing the correct course or action; yet we will not initiate until the pain is greater than the fear.  These are the moment you learn, grow and appreciate all you have in your life.  

My personal battles have been very hard on many people I love and for that I am so sorry, although I learned so much about myself, my true friends and my amazing family.  I have taken for granted so many amazing people who have loved me and been there for me.  I thought I knew, thought I gave back, thought I was grateful for having these people in my life.  But I DID NOT know, DID NOT appreciate and DID NOT love them back like I should.  That is changing. 

I promise you three years ago I would NEVER, ever believed I could be were I am today.  It has not been easily, at times I have cried, not slept, or eaten for days.  I created the same stress for a few other wonderful people.  Maybe we need these struggles and pain.  What is pleasure without pain?  The reason for living or life in general is self discovery, growing into your own, and these painful phases are how we know we are alive.  In the end we must fall to learn how to pick ourselves up.  I just hope I have done all my falling for the next decade or so. 

Remember “All of life is a transition, where you are does not have to define who you will be.”

Be Bold, Be Proud, Be Yourself.

Christina Foxx